As I sit here typing this I am experiencing chills, headache, and nausea 😦
Trust me if I had a web cam there would be a pic right here of me in all my sick-looking, bed-head glory.
I havent been so kind to my body lately with my sleeping and eating habits. I guess it started with some bad eating habits over labor day and then continued when i went to Rockhill and on my sister’s birthday 😦 Looking at the scale wasnt too pretty either!!
Whenever i feel guilty about my weight, I also have trouble sleeping. So after 2 weeks of that my body is revolting 😦
I usually dont go into detail about my slip-ups on here because Im kind of sacred it would freak people out? It’s easy to admit I made mistakes and abused my body in the past. It’s really hard to be honest and say when i abuse it in the present. Its hard to say that I’m still making mistakes.
I know that getting over an eating disorder means you will make mistakes as you get well. But what about people who read this and have no idea about eating disorders? If she really wanted to get well she wouldn’t be making all these mistakes!!
Last night i went out to dinner with 2 of best friends and another girl. My friends know ive dealt with eating issues, but they have no clue how much i still struggle. To them, im well because I’m a healthy weight again. The other girl went on and on about how thin our waitress was and how girls with eating disorders think they are better than other people, are crazy, and just need to eat!!
I kept quiet, but it scares me to know that if anyone knew how much i really struggle that they would think all those things about me!!
For the next few days im hoping eating healthy, not skipping meals, and resting will get my body back in check. Its so difficult to keep eating healthy after days of over eating, but its the most important step in overcoming bingeing!!
Hope everyone has an amazing rest of the week!!
PS my friend in Rockhill knew I was sick so she sent me hours of amusement through Youtube. Heres my favorite so far….
Fruits of my Spirit 
Girl I feel ya with the whole mental disorder thing! People don’t understand them, even if they are common ones. Even my dad still struggles with understanding why I can’t just BE happy. (I have bipolar disorder and ADD.) When I was first getting diagnosed with bipolar, when I told people, they thought I have multiple personalities and needed to be institutionalized, in all seriousness.
The best way to fight it is with knowledge. Obv, I’m not saying hold an impromptu class on it if you hear someone speaking like that girl. But, in my experience when I told them what it was, it made so much more sense and they understood better how little control I have and that I’m not actually “crazy.” 🙂 Praying for you girl!
Oh girl, get some good rest and some quality time for yourself! You deserve some pampering! 🙂 I am sorry that your friend was talking in that manner about ED, but people who have never experienced that usually don´t get the whole thing 😦
Don´t care about those mistakes you make. We all are making mistakes all the time. We are like “PC programs” full of little mistakes…we work pretty good most of the time, but sometimes one of these mistakes comes to the surface and disbalance the whole system. But when you know about it, you can learn how to fix it and how to avoid it in the future. Of course, another mistake will come, but hey – that´s life. Mistakes happen. And as long as you learn from them/take something from them, it is all good! Hugs ❤
Thank you so much!! I’m trying to forgive myself for my mistakes and learn from them. I hope I feel better soon but at least I’ve learned what NOT to do 🙂
girl i hate when people are so rude about eating disorders and dont realize that it is NOT A DISEASE OF CHOICE! ugh i just want to shake people! and i am in the process of trying to stop binging too. i am at a good healthy weight but i know that alot of the pounds are from eating TOO MUCH in a BiNGE manner and it saddens me and frustrates me. i am trying to eat more mini meals too as well as up my protein! good luck girl i am so glad i found ya!<3
I’m so glad you can relate to me too. Its always helpful for me to see how someone else is overcoming the same issues and really encouraging!! Ill be sure to stop by your blog too for some inspiration 🙂
Aww hun hope you’re feeling better soon! Oh wow, I know they are probably lovely girls but that is a little ignorant, especially since they know you had an eating disorder. Best thing is to just accept that you know better but it must be frustrating to hear things like that. YESSS, rest is your best friend as it enough nutrience. When I was ill my doctor said it was better to have more than usual to eat than not enough as it will help you fight off the disease faster.
Thank you!! The girl who actually made the comment was a friend of a friend and she didnt know that i was sick. Still it makes me wonder what people really do think!! But I am learning that rest does wonders when you are feeling bad 🙂
Thank you!! The girl who actually made the comment was a friend of a friend and she didnt know that i was sick. Still it makes me wonder what people really do think!! But I am learning that rest does wonders when you are feeling bad 🙂