As much as I LOVE my friends, I have this irrational fear that one day they will just decide they don’t like me and move on. This happened with every friend I ever had except ONE!!! It makes me feel like something is wrong with me. I have a hard enough time making friends, I don’t want to lose them!!
I’m super shy and have a hard time getting close to and opening up to people. I’m always convinced I’m not good enough for people because I’m not skinny enough, pretty enough, or rich enough.
I know it’s somewhat normal to grow apart from some people as we get older. but there’s some people I just don’t see being able to live without…EVER!!
Anyway, I also enjoyed today because I just ate. No counting, measuring, waiting every 2 hours!! It was scary since I’m trying to lose weight, but also freeing. I’ve been dieting for 4 1/2 years straight, and its annoying!!! Todays eats probably aren’t on anyone elses diet plan, but it makes me feel better than I’ve felt in years: