I can honestly say this week I have been frustrated with every aspect of my life. Work, friends, missing school, weight, my family….
Its always hard to keep eating correctly when I have so much anxiety over things. I know I mentioned in an earlier post I haven’t being treating my body correctly this week, mostly because I’m under a lot of pressure right now. I’m determined to forgive myself for a bad week, and vow to make the upcoming one better.
This past week I learned so much and I have seen how God is working in mysterious ways.
Wednesday I took my grandparents to bible study and they begged me to stay! I’m so glad I did because I felt like the pastor was talking directly to me!! He preached from 1 Timothy 4: 1-11. I’ve always wondered how God felt about my eating disorder. The Bible never says anything specifically about them. I know my body is a temple and that gluttony is bad, but I could translate that into “dont overeat and stay thin”. I seriously doubted that is what God wanted.
I was right!! The pastor said God doesn’t want us to over indulge in food, but also doesn’t want physical fitness to be our main goal. If we are so busy focusing on exercise/weight we are not fulfilling the purpose He has for us.
This really opened my eyes. God loves me,He wants me to enjoy things, but not so much I forget to serve him. One day we will leave these bodies behind and the only thing that will matter is if we loved God. Food should not be my idol, but neither should the treadmill or the scale.
Williams Brice is just gorgeous!!
Last night I got to go to the game AND WE WON!!! I also got the chance to hang out with some high school kids while I was there. Since I spent most of high school sick, I always wanted to go back. I’ve never wanted to grow up. NOT ANYMORE!! I forgot how immature high schoolers can be. I love them (my sister is one), but I’m so thankful I am in college. As miserable as I was hanging out with them, I’m glad it happened.
This guy was at the tailgates and was so funny 
I’m thankful God was able to open my eyes so many more times this week!! Even though times are really tough right now, I’m reminded its all happening to make me a better person.
As usual I’m open to any advice on my crazy life!! I’m so excited for Dancing with the Stars to start back tomorrow along with a completely new Two and Half Men (with Ashton Kutcher!!)
Off to eat my dinner….
Mac and cheese, rice, tomato, and pinto beans....dont give me that look, its leftover night
Every wrong step is a step to becoming a better person, as long as you learn from your mistake! Your body will forgive you for treating it bad, but first you have to forgive yoursel. It is that mind-body connection. When your mind is calm and clear, your body stays clean too. Give yourself a hug instead of being harsh at your lovely self! <3
Thank you so much! Im learning from my dumb mistakes, as long as i dont repeat them over and over again Ill be okay. Im learning to forgive myself more and more, im my own worst enemy sometimes!
We all are our worst enemies, because we know ourselves the best and we know our worst “flaws”, fears and what hurts us most… Sad, but true. So let´s try to be our best friends instead of enemies
awwww i can connect with you in so many ways with this post! love it! good job! xoxox
good job!
Thank you!!!
ha- I hear you about being thankful we’re in college now. High school is over and I don’t want to go back!!
haha i guess i forgot about how miserable it could be
Hey girly, I found your blog on CJ’s blog and I’m going to start following because it sounds like we have a lot in common including our love for Carolina football! Even though I think we need to improve a lot before we face Vandy
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So glad the Bible Study was beneficial to you, I think God works like that to put us in the right places at the right times so that we can hear what He has to say.
Im glad you found my blog considering we have alot in common!! I love Carolina football season but I am little nervous about this Saturday *fingers crossed* God is so sneaky sometimes, but Im so glad I was listening that day!!